I can't afford my phone bill, so now I depend completely on WiFi to communicate via Facebook. I can't afford rent right now, and it's due the first of the month. I'm seriously screwed.
But at least I can't afford to eat, either. As long as I can afford a tall boy after work, and since it seems I'm re-developing a smoking habit, that's another necessity.
See how fucked I am?
Not to mention how fucked up my brain is. I've never been one to get violently jealous, especially over a boy. But this boy has got me fucked up. I see red, and I want to smash everything near me. I can't stop thinking that he's fucking someone else, and my brain creates these scenes that I don't want or need to think about. It's fucked up. I'm fucked up. And I don't know how to fix it.
I don't know how to fix myself.
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